First Entry
POSTED AT 11:09 AM

black_wings

Alright I am just doing this to see if I like my site colors so just ignore this.
Listening to: Makeout by No Doubt
Feeling: aggravated

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
POSTED AT 11:22 AM

black_wings

Ok I am still having problems deciding my site colors this is so annoying I had to start over I am currently feeling very pissed off so everybody stay the hell out of my way!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY OH WHY DID I FORGET MY PASSWORD!!!!!!!!!!!!! GLLLLLLLLLAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
DAMN MYSELF! HOLY FUCKING SHIT GOD DAMMIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK DAMMIT DAMMIT DAMMIT DAMMIT DAMMIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *this continues for sometime*sorry if anybody was offended and I have now destroyed your innocent mind but I am so pissed!!!!! GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Listening to: Don't Let Me Down by No Doubt
Feeling: pissed as hell

New Site Colors
POSTED AT 11:36 AM

black_wings

Ok I have calmed down somewhat and I want to know do you people like my new site colors or do you totally hate them? Please be completly honest because I don't know what to do here! Don't forget which is better Spidey1 or Spidey2 please tell me why you think so too. Once again sorry for all of the naughty words in my previous entry.
Listening to: Platinum Blonde by No Doubt
Feeling: aggravated

Help
POSTED AT 03:18 PM

black_wings

Ok so I tried to get an image for my background and I went to the Help link and it told me there how to do it and then I tried doing it and it didn't show up! It totally deleated my colors and there was no background it was just white! Anybody know what I did wrong?

e-mail
POSTED AT 06:47 PM

black_wings

Ok I don't remember if I already told you this but Megan my e-mail is maliksgirlfriend@sisna.com yours is i_luv_jacksparrow@hotmail.com right?

It's only Peanut Butter
POSTED AT 12:24 PM

black_wings

Ok my sister is currently pissed off at me because she wants a PB and J and the peanut butter isn't stirred (we get Adam's natural so you have to stir it up) The reason she is mad is because she can't stir the peanut butter herself because, "I'm not strong enough!" it is only a jar of peanut butter! I am not going to stir the peanut butter for her because 1. I'm not the one who wants the sandwhich 2. She is 10 so by now she should be able to stir it herself and 3. That is just sad if you can't stir a jar of peanut butter. True I guess this could be seen as being mean but it is only a jar of peanut butter! Then she came back down and yelled at me again (while my mother is napping mind you!) and I still said I wouldn't do so she kicked me. Then I said I definetly wasn't going to do it now and so she screamed "I hate you and I always have" and rushed out of the room. My sister gets mad too easily, if she is being a brat and really disrespectful towards me and I chuck a blanket at her she immediantly proceeds to get up and kick me and hit. Can we say anger managment? Oh well she is probably watching tv right now a brooding over how she is going to starve because her big sister wouldn't stir a jar of peanut butter for her.
Reading: some H/D fic don't remember what it is called
Listening to: Ending Theme for Gundam Seed
Feeling: bored

Results to a quiz
POSTED AT 05:09 PM

black_wings

You are the Secretive Mermaid. Perpetual beauty
that longs for legs to walk by the side of men.
You spend your time gazing at the stars and
whispering to the moon. You have little to no
freinds that breathe. Your freinds all missing.
You are sweet as syryp and kind as cake. There
are a handful of people and mermaids like you.
Would you rate my quiz I will keep it a secret?


What kind of mermaid are you? (Gorgeous Pics)
brought to you by Quizilla

Gotta Hurry!
POSTED AT 07:09 AM

black_wings

Ok here is a quick little entry for you people out there reading this. Anyway I have to go to Theatre School today and frankly I don't really want to. I am in the middle of this awesome H/D fic problem is some chapters are about like 50 pages long so I don't have time to finish it. H and D are both vampires yeah I know it is weird but it is really good you guys should go to fanfiction.net and check it out! Unless your not into slash and lemons in that case DO NOT GO!!!!! If you have no idea what I am talking about I also suggest you don't go. The story is in my fav.'s section it is called "Fate, Destiny, and Fatigue" Ok I have nothing else to say except "Feeling way too damn good" by Nickelback is stuck in my head, and I love that song but it is going to be stuck in my head for the rest of the day and I only know the chorus T-T Oh well it is still a good song! That and Gardner and Brown Sensei will probably kick my ass because I didn't zesah sit at all this weekend! Today is going to be painful! Zesah is how you see all those Japanese people sitting like when they at the dinner table where your legs are underneath you so you are basically sitting on your legs. You try doing it it is harder than you think! Fare thee well! *poof*
Reading: that fic I told you about
Listening to: Feeling Way To Damn Good by Nickelback
Feeling: rushed

Of Pirates, Shonen Jump, and Frappuccino's
POSTED AT 03:40 PM

black_wings

Ok well I got my new Shonen Jump today! *does a little dance* and for the past 3 issues (I think) they have had sneak peeks at the Yu-Gi-Oh movie (coming out August 13th, *sniff* and I won't be here! But I do get to see the Inu-Yasha movie, hopefully) when I get back I forbid anyone of my friends who has seen it (especially you Joemy) to tell me about it. It also has a interview with the creator Kazuki Takahashi, whom I worship like a god. Today in my trumpet lesson I got an easy version of... *drum roll* PIRATES OF THE CARRIBEAN! *does a little dance* don't hurt me Megan it is a really easy version. Came home and got the sweet elixer of life, Starbucks Frappuccino's! I am ADDICTED!!!!!!! To these things *grabs frapp. and holds it to chest* IT IS MINE, MINE YOU WILL NEVER GET IT!!!!!!! YOU WILL NEVER TAKE ME ALIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!! AWAY YOU GOVERNMENT DOGS AWAY I SAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BWHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA *runs off still laughing like a maniac down the hall* BWHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *jumps out windown and breaks into mother's car and begins driving away* BWHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *a week later she is seen driving across the border to Canada* BWHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!! YOU NEVER CATCH ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BWHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Reading: H/D fic
Listening to: ARi something *it is some tab I am working on*
Feeling: hyper

Forgot something
POSTED AT 03:42 PM

black_wings

Ok I forgot to tell you this in my last entry made like 5 seconds ago. PLEASE OH PLEASE vote in my Spidey poll, I only have two votes and it is a tie! If I do not recieve more votes by Thurs. I shall vote and I don't like to vote in my own polls. Here is the poll for any who missed it, which was better Spidey 1 or Spidey 2?

I AM IN LOVE WITH A PSYCHOTIC FREAK!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!
POSTED AT 04:18 PM

black_wings

Currently reading Shaman King as I type this and I am now officially in love with a psychopath. His name is Faust the eighth (only the eighth is in Roman Numerals) he is German (like me!) and he is a Necromancer (corpse jockey) Here is what Shonen Jump tells us about Necromancer's *Necromancers are European Sorcerers who reunite ghosts with their remains for their over souls. (that is too difficult to explain so don't ask me about it) One of them with enough mana (spiritual power sorta) can command an army of skeletons!* in other words the guy can raise the dead and he is SO!!!!... DAMN!!!!!!... SEXY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Because Hiei is in love with Kurama (or at least he should be in the anime) I have moved to my Faust *sighs* Faust what a sexy name! *squeals like a little girl* Crazy I know I am, I like to think of myself as dark but not neccesairly evil. My new boyfriend however is a murderer who killed his last opponet, but hey I can look past that!!!!! As we come to a close on Shaman King for this month he was about to cut open Mana (this little guy who is like my favorite guy character, next my Faust!) he was cutting him open to examin him (because he is really, really short! He is like a hobbit) Once again I can look past all of this!!!!!!!! HE IS MY FAUST AND NOBODY SHALL HAVE HIM BUT ME!!!!!!!!! WHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! COME TO ME MY FAUST!!!!!!!!!!!! *later at a wedding chapel in a cematary where skeletons are filling in for the minister, best man, bride's maid, ringbearer, onlookers, etc.* I DO!!!!!!! YAY NOW WE ARE MARRIED!
Reading: Shonen Jump! :alice:
Listening to: Breaking the Habit by Linkin Park
Feeling: In Love

For your viewing pleasure
POSTED AT 07:12 PM

black_wings

Ok guys so I managed to find some pics of my love Faust yes I know they aren't the best in the world except for a few but hey it isn't easy to find picutres that aren't crappy fan art of him. Also guys, this is too depressing, I don't know if I can bear it. Ok *takes a deep breath* HE'S MARRIED!!!!!!! The reason he wants to become Shaman King is to revive his dead wife (she took a bullet to the head) Even if he is married (and 33) I STILL LOVE HIM ANYWAYS!!!!!!!!! It suprised me too find out he was 33 he looks much younger I thought he was like 17 or something! Well here are those pics I promised!
Reading: None
Listening to: Broken by Seether feautring Amy Lee
Feeling: sad

Quick little entry
POSTED AT 05:51 PM

black_wings

Ok guys I am typing this really fast because my mom and I are going to a Butoh (spelling?) performance down at the Rose Wagner, I will explain Butoh when I get back. Two of my sensei's from Theatre School are in it, and according to Linda Sensei this performance will be unlike anything I have ever seen before! Nuff said, so I am off! I will tell you guys how it was when I return! Laters!
Listening to: Various Utena songs
Feeling: excited

HOLY SHIT!!!!!!!
POSTED AT 09:24 PM

black_wings

(Pardon the title) Ok guys so I got back from the butoh performance I told you guys about and all I have to say is WOW! It literally blew my mind out of the water, it was the single coolest thing I have ever seen in my entire life!!!!!!! You guys I am not kidding! HOLY SHIT!!!!!!!!!!! Butoh is a realitivly new art form in Japan (invented just after WWII I think, but don't quote me on that) and it is truly unlike any thing you have ever seen. I don't really know how to describe it. It was about human emotions I guess you could say, there were no words (a few screams and hisses though) It was all conveyed through the body and it looked painful at times. On this one two girls were throwing themselves on the ground and walking kinda like they were drunk I guess, and they were moving their entire body,everything, face, arms, legs, toes, etc. and one girl had on high heels and she kept walking so that her ankle touched the ground, like when you are on high heels or just in any shoes and you fall and most of the time you sprain your ankle, I hope you guys know what I am talking about and she kept walking like that and I was waiting for her ankle to snap! If you guys want to know more about this please ask me about it at school or just leave a comment I will be happy to tell you. This art form however is not for everyone, probably the only people reading this who would really like it would be Megan, Christina, and maybe Joemy. Everyone else you guys might think it was cool but you wouldn't want to go and see it again and you might have gotten bored with it, some of you would have been "What the hell are they doing? This is dumb I'm leaving" (please do not take any of this as an insult, but it is a very deep and disturbing art form. Plus the men were in loinclothes most of the time. It does not mean I do not like you or think you are dumb it just means I don't think it would appeal to you guys) I am still in awe of my sensei's who were in it! Well I must go, we are perfoming our peace that I am working on from Theatre School tomorrow for a confrence and I want to be ready for it tomorrow, this is not our final performance and if any of you guys have any interest in coming to see my performance please let me know. Oh also you guys have to go and check out Macbeth that is playing down at the Old Pickel Factory, I went and saw it last year and it is really good. I know Macbeth, Lady Macbeth, and Julia who is playing all of the children. Well that was enough about that, what can I say I am a drama dork! Laters!
Listening to: The theatre school song, not good
Feeling: In awe

AND THE RESULTS ARE IN!!!!
POSTED AT 04:24 PM

black_wings

Ok guys my Spidey Poll is now closed! Thanks to the all of 3 people who voted. Anyway the winner is... *drum roll* SPIDEY 2!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! All though this is my personal opinion I do have to agree with you Megan Spidey 1 was better, but hey that is just me! Anyway the count was Spidey 1 with 1 Spidey 2 with 2 haha I just realized that is kinda funny, Spiderman 1 got one vote and Spidey 2 got two, haha get it? *crickets chirpping in background* Ok then, well here is my new poll which is better the Harry Potter books, or the Harry Potter movies? This is for all of them books 1-5 and movies 1-3. Please tell me what you guys think because I find it very interesting to know. That is all for now laters!
Reading: none
Listening to: Bobby by Wreck of the Portland
Feeling: eh

The Butoh Workshop
POSTED AT 03:25 PM

black_wings

Ok guys I just got back from TS and today we went down to the Rose Wagner to do a Butoh workshop (any info on performance see my previous entry titled "HOLY SHIT!!!!!!") Anyway it was the most intense, physically draining, and mentally draining thing I have ever done in my entire life! My body hurts all over and my mind hurts even more. It wasn't just my company that was there but other people I didn't even know, so you guys are like well ya what is the big deal about that. One of the excersises was we all huddled into a big group and their were probably about 30 of us and we were huddled in so we were touching the people around us and we had to lean back and rest our bodies on the people behind us. We didn't even know these people! Also another one was you had to get with a partner and I didn't even know my partner! The only time I had seen her was at our performance yesterday at the Marriot when she had come up to work a little with the puppets. What we had to do was one person got on the wall and the other person had to push his/her bodies up against theirs, by this time everybody was sweating and we were smelly and with me like literally sweat was dripping off of my face. After we pushed up against their bodies they had their back to us and we had to run our hands down their entire body, their ENTIRE body! That had to be the thing that pushed my comfort level the most! All and all it was really fun and I am mad I didn't tell Christina about this. If you want me to tell you guys more then just ask me because this was like a three hour session and I did a whole hell of a lot more then the things I have mentioned! Right now I am feeling very empty because the whole point of the exercises we did was to break the barrier between our emotions so we could express them and they would be completly raw. I let out like all of my emotions, anger, sadness, happiness, pain, longing everything so right now I feel like their is nothing inside of me. I feel really good and I also feel a conncection to everybody at the workshop because it was a hard workshop as I mentioned before and we all go through it together so there is now a connection between us and it feels really cool! Their was also this really hot guy their and it looked liked he choose to be their of his own free will so I'm like "Cool a cute guy who is actually into Butoh! The heavens smile down on me at last!" Then at the end of the session he went off with some other chick and my friend Karli had also been eyeing him and we were both like "Damn! I was hoping he was single!" Also when we had to do a bit of Butoh dancing Garnder sensei had showed us a small routine to do before we did our own improv dance and at one point I thought he said to start your own dance and so I did and then about 3 minutes later "Begin your own dance" and I was like "Wait I thought you told me to do that before! Oh shit don't I feel stupid now" cause I was running up against the walls and turning and all that stuff. It was so embarissing! Anyway that was my fun little adventure. Don't forget about my new poll! Which is better the Harry Potter books or the movies? Laters!
Reading: none
Listening to: Leader of Men by Wreck of the Portland
Feeling: tired/empty

The next morning
POSTED AT 08:29 AM

black_wings

Ok guys I am really feeling the pain from the butoh workshop I had yesterday, it hurts to move. My back, neck, arms, and thighs are killing me! But like I said yesterday it was all worth it because I had a blast! Well I am mad because I was watching Shaman King this morning and it was a back to back episode and so I was waiting for the next one to come on but then instead some stupid music show came on! The worst part is the episode was Yoh's fight with my beloved Faust! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It even said coming up next Shaman King and then the dumb music show comes on! GRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!! I am mad but I will check out fox 13 at the time the dumb music show was supposed to come on and see if Shaman King is on then, of course if it was it would be on at 10 and that is the same time YGO comes on! Yeah I know the problems I must face! Decisions, decisions, oh well. I am off! Laters
Listening to: I don't want to be anything other than me
Feeling: mad/annoyed/in pain