Entries for June, 2005
June 1st, 2005
Last day of school POSTED AT 04:11 PM  Oh well. Then we had our awards assembly and that was fun! I won "Best Actress" in the one-act my drama class did (Addict). The play was about various people and there drug addictions, rather depressing. My character was Kendra Starr and she was a coke addicted rock star. After the awards assembly we got out of school and I went to Z pizzeria with a bunch of my friends, crap I gtg. I will tell you the rest later. Bye!
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June 2nd, 2005
Last day of school cont'd POSTED AT 11:34 AM Sorry about that, I had to go to Monster Spider rehersals. Anyways, yeah I went to Z's pizzeria with Josh, Sara, Sara, Megan, Lada, Trisha, Brooke, Sam, Cody, Mauricio, Wendy, Jessica, Max, Karen, Bakir, and some others I probably don't remember (sorry!). We met up with Austin, Morgan, Matt, Smithy, Ben, and Adam when we got there. We had a blast while we were there, there was a bit of a misunderstanding with everybody in the group about what we were doing about ordering pizza's so in the end we ended up bringing a large pizza home with us. Megan, Lada, Josh, Trisha, Brooke, and myself all decided to walk over to Adam's house (I don't really know why, but we did) Then when we got back to Evergreen (had to walk past Evergreen to get to Adam's house) Josh realized he forgot his awards (he got 9 at the assembly at the pizzeria so Karen, Mauricio and I walked back with him to go get them. Well they weren't there so we walked up to Dr. Volt's to see if they were there and they were! Josh was so happy cause if he never found his award's his mom would have been pissed. Well anyways we hoped that everbody else was still waiting at the school for us so we could all walk down to Adam's together, but they weren't. Well I had no idea where Adam lived and Josh and Karen said they had a vague idea (Marucio had decided to walk home) so we walked around for about ten minutes before deciding to head back home (or to Karen's house) then we turned around and they recoqnized (sp?) Adam's street. We had a ton of fun over at Adam's! Poor Austin didn't get a single award at the assembly so he was trying to commit suicide when we got there. He finally gave up about ten minutes after we got there. Then we just kinda goofed around for an hour or so. Ben taught me how to use a gun (Mwhahahahaha!) even though it was only a bebee gun, but hey! At least now I know how to use one! At about 2 Josh's mom came to pick him up and I got a ride home. Then I got home and my mom wasn't back from work, neither was my dad, and my sister was swimming all the way out at Kearn's and I had no house key. So I just rode around on my scooter for a while. Yeah that was about it. It was a pretty fun last day of school. I am sad to be moving on from EJH but kinda excited to go to OLY next year! Well see you guys later! I am going to watch movies over at my friend's house while eating lots of junk food! Listening to: Shakunetsu Blade by Bad Luck (I think) Feeling: happy/tired/depressed |
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June 3rd, 2005
Content Pages! POSTED AT 11:35 AM |
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June 5th, 2005
Plans for today POSTED AT 10:32 AM I don't have much time to talk you guys, my family is going to see Star Wars Episode III Revenge of the Sith. I don't really know if I am excited or not. I am excited to see it, but also afraid that it will be absoultly terrible like the second one was. The first was ok, second terrible, i don't know how the third one will be. All my friends who have seen it loved it (but they were all Star Wars fanatics) All right I have to go now, apparently we are leaving in 15 minutes and nobody woke me up until like 10 minutes ago and just informed me now when we are leaving. Ugh. Oh also I have the third chapter for Falling Into You all done, I will post it later today probably. Also expect an updated gallery to go along with that! Toodles! |
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June 6th, 2005
I'm to nice for my own damn good POSTED AT 01:26 PM I'm too nice for my own damn good you guys. Fuck what have I gotten myself into to? ARGH!!!!!! OIHNGIRBNIBNGRIUBGOFH RFERGFBHSFVHFJFD!!!!!!!! So you guys are probably wondering what I did this time. Well, hmmm...where to begin. Ok, this could be a slightly long story so yeah (It shouldn't be to long.) Well I had my first boyfriend this year (I don't know if it could really be called that but I'll explain that later) And he was in 8th grade, while I was in 9th. I honestly don't know why I agreed to go out with him. Probably cause I was just bored and decided what the heck! (Its like that commerical. "Things can get pretty ugly when your bored." ) Well anyways so we never really went out. We just kinda talked at school (yeah I know there is no real dating in Jr. High but just go with me here people!) So yeah, he really started annoying me during the one school week (5 days) we were "going out" so on Friday I "broke up" with him. Well I could tell I broke his heart and really hurt him, and I did feel bad about it, but not to bad. Well when we broke up I did the whole, "Its not you, its me, and I still want to be friends" when I really didn't (I'm to nice) So you know he would say "hi" to me in the halls and would say "hi" back in a really monotone voice or just completly ignore him. Eventually he got the message that I didn't want to talk to him and left me alone. So you all are going, "So whats the big deal?" Well I'll tell you. So for liek the last month of school I started warming back up to him and acknowleding his exsistence when I saw him in the halls. Just you know to be nice. Then the last day of school I signed his year book and gave him my e-mail. Just as a hey you are sorta cool again you can e-mail me like once thing. I didn't really think he would e-mail me. Well...haha...guess what? He did! So the more you guys read this the more you are like, "Wow Marin, your stupid." I know I am! Well his e-mails have basically been short 5 or 6 letter things. Here is the whole convo so far. Ian: Alo, Marin-Chan, 'tis Ian saying hello!-^_^- Me: Yola, Ian: lol, you're such a dork Me: *begins to cry* Ian: *hugs her*Don't cry T_T Me: *continues to cry* Ian: *pushes her chin up with one finger and looks into her eyes*please don't cry Marin-Chan And yeah that has been basically it. Well I know I got myself into this mess and it is all my fault but if one of you guys out there could help me out here I would really appreciate it! It is kinda obvious that he is starting to like me again and yes I know it is my fault entirely for giving him the wrong message BUT SOMEBODY PLEASE! FOR THE LOVE OF GOD HELP ME! PLEASE! I WILL LOVE YOU FOREVER IF YOU HELP ME DECIDE HOW TO RESPOND TO THIS! HELP PLEASE! SOS! SOS! SOS! SOS! SOS! SOS! Listening to: Hard Days Night by The Beatles Feeling: HELP! |
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June 7th, 2005
Bored and Sick POSTED AT 01:24 PM You guys I am bored, sick, and hungry. I wish I had a sandwhich! :`-( I will go make myself one in a minute. Well I still don't know how to respond to Ian's last e-mail (ideas welcome!) I woke up at like 8:30, A LOT! sooner than I have been lately, usually I have been getting up around 1:30 (it is so nice) So yeah. Maybe the reason I am sick is because I kept going through temperature changes last night while I was sleeping. I would wake up and be burning up so I would take a blanket or two off, then I would wake up freezing so I would put a blanket on me, etc. It was so annoying! But my mom got me some coke so hopefully I will feel better before 5:30! I have Monster Spider rehersal tonight and I am the head puppeteer for the fisherman and the puppet that comes out in the beginning and says the opening line! ARGH! But Linda did tell us to listen to our body and right now my body is telling me it wants to hurl. Linda will understand, but I will still feel bad if I don't end up making it to rehersal. I hope I do! Love ya all! Listening to: Everybody's Chaning by Keane Feeling: sick/tired/bored/hungry |
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June 9th, 2005
Oh Shit POSTED AT 09:27 PM 
Reading: Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire Listening to: Helena by My Chemical Romance Feeling: confused |
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June 10th, 2005
Crawling In My Skin POSTED AT 12:37 PM
Feeling: depressed |
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June 13th, 2005
With You POSTED AT 04:19 PM To the cold of the static, and put my cold feet on the floor Forgot all about yesterday Remembering I'm pretending to be where I'm not anymore A little taste of hypocrisy And I'm left in the wake of the mistake, slow to react Even though you're so close to me You're still so distant, and I can't bring you back Pre chorus: It's true The way I feel Was promised by your face The sound of your voice Painted on my memories Even if you're not with me I'm with you You Now I see Keeping everything inside You Now I see Even when I close my eyes I hit you and you hit me back We fall to the floor, the rest of the day stands still Fine line between this and that When things go wrong I pretend the past isn't real Now I'm trapped in this memory And I'm left in the wake of the mistake, slow to react Even though you're close to me You're still so distant, and I can't bring you back Pre chorus Chorus (2x) No, no matter how far we've come I can't wait to see tomorrow No matter how far we’ve come I can’t wait to see tomorrow With you Chorus (3x) |
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June 13th, 2005
One Step Closer POSTED AT 04:21 PM I cannot take this anymore |
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June 14th, 2005
Updated! POSTED AT 03:09 PM Listening to: Crawling by Linkin Park Feeling: happy |
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June 15th, 2005
CHOCOLATE! POSTED AT 11:47 AM HOLY FUCK YOU GUYS AM I EVER HYPED UP! CHOCOLATE CHOCOLATE CHOCOLATE! GIVE ME CHOCOLATE! THE KILLERS! I AM LISTENING TO THEM RIGHT NOW AND SINGING ALONG VERY LOULDY AND OUT OF KEY! YAY OUT OF KEY! I DON'T WANT TO GO TO MONSTER SPIDER OR BUTOH TONIGHT! PLEASE DON'T KICK MY SHIT TODAY JEREMY! DON'T KICK MY SHIT! MY SHIT DOESN'T WANT KICKING! AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!! Listening to: ALL THESE THINGS I'VE DONE BY THE KILLERS! Feeling: CHOCOLATE! |
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June 15th, 2005
CHOCOLATE PART 2 POSTED AT 11:59 AM Listening to: SOMEBODY TOLD ME BY THE KILLERS! Feeling: OPERAIE! |
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June 15th, 2005
Today POSTED AT 08:47 PM So yeah the below two entries are what I did during my morning. I was kinda hyper if ya can't tell. After I took a shower and calmed down I went to Butoh. The one time I actually make it, I'm at the right place, and on time, AND IT IS CANCELLED! My mom, sister, and myself sat in the car for a few minutes and then Jeremy pulled up and told us it was cancelled and we offered to hang out for a while and tell anybody else who showed up it was cancelled. Well Olivia and Gabe showed up and that was it. We hung out for a bit because we thought that Stuart and Connor might show but they never did. After that my mom finally took me to Media Play to buy a cd I worked my butt off to get! I had to dig up so many weeds to earn enough money to buy My Chemical Romance's cd "Three Cheers for Sweet Revenge"! I LOVE THOSE GUYS AND THE CD KICKS FUCKIN ASS! GO BUY IT! RIGHT NOW! RUN! GO! SHIT I GTG! |
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June 16th, 2005
My Chemical Romance POSTED AT 10:22 AM Listening to: Cemetery Drive by My Chemical Romance Feeling: rockin |
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June 16th, 2005
Does Anyone Remember This Game? POSTED AT 10:28 AM Listening to: Give 'em hell kid by My Chemical Romance Feeling: still rockin |
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June 17th, 2005
Updated Gallery! POSTED AT 02:35 PM Listening to: Ghost of You by My Chemical Romance Feeling: Happy |
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June 19th, 2005
BATMAN BEGINS ROCKS! POSTED AT 09:21 PM Reading: I'll start Poison Wood Bible eventually Listening to: Ghost of You by My Chemical Romance Feeling: In awe |
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June 22nd, 2005
YOU GUYS MY GOLDFISH KICKS ASS! POSTED AT 09:56 PM 
Reading: The Poisonwood Bible Listening to: Two Towers soundtrack Watching: Aki simming Feeling: LOVE FOR AKI! |
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June 24th, 2005
Chicago Ho! POSTED AT 11:27 AM Alrighty you guys, last night we had the travel meeting for the play I'm in "The Monster Spider" You see we get to go and perform the play in Chicago at the AATE (I think those are the initials, but just trust me you guys, it is a MAJOR theatre conference!) Theatre Conference! Last night we had the meeting for it where we found out who we were rooming with (Starley who is a college student, Alexis, and Olivia. Please don't sneak out Alexis and Olivia! Please don't! I don't want Amy pissed off!) and what our shedule is for the four days we will be there. I thought I would post the schedule for you guys to see. Who knows, maybe somebody reading this is from Chicago and can give me advice and what to do! Thursday July 28: 7:45 AM Meet at Delta(my dad works for Delta! Yay Delta!) Airlines Ticket Desk 9:55 AM Depart SLC Delta #1251 1:59 PM Arrive Chicago, Shuttles to Hotel 4:00-6:30 PM Relax and Dinner at Hotel (Palmer House Hotel) 7:15 Board buses for Northwestern University 8:00-10:00 PM The BFG @ Northwestern University (we are going to see the BFG of all shows to see in Chicago. Nothing against BFG I liked the book but I think I would rather see something else) Friday July 29: 9:15 AM-Noon Wakamono Butoh Workshop in Pool Promenade (YES! BUTOH WITH GARDNER SENSEI, BROWN SENSEI, AND ARWEN!) Noon-12:45 Lunch 1:00-2:15 Puppetry in Performance Workshop (This is the workshop where Brown Sensei will talk about his expierences with the Tonda Bunraku Troupe and demenstrate some puppetry. Who knows maybe he will invite us M.S. puppeteers up to do a couple stories) 3:00-7:00PM Museum of Science and Industry and (Body Works Option) (which I will not be attending the Body Works thing, it will creep me out to much. I just don't think my stomach could handle it. It isn't like diagrams of the human body but actual human body parts from actual human bodies that donated their bodies to science. I think I will pass and go do a workshop or something) 7:00-10:00 PM Dinner (Pizza night, great idea Amy. Tomatoey pizza right after an exhibit with real human body parts. Please also note here that I am not trying to diss on the people who donated their bodies. I think that rocks, but I just do not have an interest to see them, and I think it is disrespectful and insulting to their memories to place them in a public museum where any creep could pay $5 to go and gawk at them) Saturday July 30: 10:00am-12:30Pm Art Institute of Chicago (WOOT WOOT! HELL YEAH BABY!) 12:30-1:30 PM Lunch 1:30-5:15 Monster Spider (2:30) go time) in Monroe Ballroom (WOOT WOOT!) 5:15-7:00 Dinner 7:00-10:00 Albany Park Theatre Project (Playwright's Slam to follow is optional) in Monroe Ballroom (now this should be cool. It is a group of teen actors who write plays based on the expierences of immigrants who come to Chicago. That should be cool) Sunday July 31: 9:00Am-Noon Sears Tower and/or Free Time (Options include Shedd Aquarium, which I will be going to, Field Museum, Navy Pier) 3:15 Pm Leave Chicago Delta #1173 5:41 Arrive SLC So yeah that is the current schedule in case anybody cares, I will probably ditch out on the Science Museum all together and go to some workshops at the conference. I just don't find science that interesting and I'm not in Chicago to do sciency things I'm there for art! ART BABY! Well I gtg. I'm going to try to clean house in hopes of getting some $. Toodles! Listening to: Blind Game Again by Bad Luck Feeling: frustrated |
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June 24th, 2005
I am very cross right now POSTED AT 09:32 PM Listening to: MCR Feeling: cross |
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June 25th, 2005
... POSTED AT 03:05 PM Just got back from going to see Batman Begins with two of my friends Lada and Max. The reason we went is because we wanted it to be this massive get together for Lada before she leaves for Bosnia in 7 days (she will be gone for like a month) and we wanted it to be massive, but everybody had some church choir practice thingy so they couldn't go. But it was still fun with just the three of us. Lada was the only one who hadn't seen the movie so Max and I were all excited for her. It was really great cause about 4 or 5 seats down there was this group of girls who were laughing the entire movie and when Rachael slaps Bruce they were like "Kick her ass!" and then at the end when Batman and Gordon are talking about the new guy and they showed the Joker card some guy in the back of the theatre was like "THE JOKER!" and I was like, "No shit sherlock!" It was a blast. Well I gotta go now my daddy wants to use the computer. Oh and I have decided in honor of HBP's release I have changed all of my icons to HP icons. Just because I can and I think its cool. Toodles! Listening to: Smile Like You Mean It by The Killers Feeling: happy |
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June 25th, 2005
Sex, Drugs, and Rock N' Roll POSTED AT 11:12 PM Well I have had a pretty boring night. I had a fight with my sister because she doesn't know how to control her anger. Ok so I came in and she was watching fuckin "That's So Raven" (I hate that show and that chick) I was like, "Carson, why are you watching this?" and she said, "I'm just watching it until Teen Titans (I love that show) comes on." So I just decided to sit down and watch it, there was only like 15 minutes left. So we are watching it and it goes to commercial and I wanted to flip to Vh1 cause I'm a dork like that. So I asked for the changer and she gave it to me and when I flipped it Jimi Hendrix was on so I'm like, "Yes! Hendrix I'll watch this until TT comes on." It turns out it was one of those top 100 Hard Rock Bands and Hendrix was 3. Then Carson started freaking out because I don't know why. My little sister has serious anger issues and I'm not kidding. She needs to learn to control her anger or she is going to get the shit kicked outta her one day and I won't feel sorry for her. Well anyways she started freaking out and ordering me to give her back the controller and I said no because I wanted to see who was #1 on the countdown (Led Zeppelin as it should be) so she picked up one of the couch cushions getting ready to "beat me up" with it. Well she stopped short when she spotted my glass on the floor (it was empty) and started yelling at me about that and how I should use a coaster and put it on the table. So she picked it up, put it on a coaster, and picked up the cushion again. Well she hucked it at me and as a natural response I put my arm up to bounce the cushion off. Of course it smashed into the glass and broke it. So yeah I am still pissed at her because I really liked that glass and she acted like the entire thing was my fault and that she was just a victim. I wanted to tell her what I really thought and still do. I would probably go something like this "Carson just sit your little fuckin ass down on the couch and shut the fuck up and listen to me. You need to learn how to control your anger because if you don't one day you are going to get the fuckin shit kicked out of you and I won't feel sorry for you at all." But that would really have landed me into trouble, so I didn't. After that whole fiasco I just kinda hung out on the computer. I looked up a ton of Sex Pistols pics on the internet and found this really cool site that describes the history of the Sex Pistols. It is good, I suggest you check it out. http://www.thefilthandthefury.co.uk/pistols/bio/sp_bio1.htm Well I am off now to do I don't know what. Probably read some HP fanfics that will make me horny and go to bed (Because I'm a dork like that. Welcome to Information Loser Highway!) There is a rather good naughty one I am reading right now and the third chapter has been posted. P.S. As you can obviously see I changed the whole "I am going to have all HP icons" because I felt like it. And I finally got an MCR icon to download! Yes! Unfortunatly it is not of Frank Iero but oh well, I still like it! I'm off for real now. *poof* Listening to: E.M.I. by the Sex Pistols Feeling: tired |
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June 26th, 2005
The Aftermath of Yesterday POSTED AT 12:24 PM You guys I am so fuckin tired and I feel hungover (not from alcohol or drugs, maybe it was all the rock music I listened to yesterday) and all I want to do is go and watch a samurai movie and paint my toenails. So fuckin bored. Ugh. I hate my site colors but I'm to lazy to change them. This sucks. Fuckin sucks. I think I am going to call my friend Joemy so we can hang out because I haven't hung with her in like forever. Maybe we will watch a movie. I don't know what we will do. That is all I have to say. Expect new site colors tomorrow, maybe, I don't know. Reading: The Poisonwood Bible Listening to: Submission by the Sex Pistols Watching: computer screen Feeling: tired/hungover |
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June 26th, 2005
Pretty Vacant POSTED AT 12:28 PM There's no point in asking You'll get no reply Just remembered don't decide I got no reason it's all too much You'll always find us Out to lunch We're so pretty Oh so pretty We’re vacant We're so pretty Oh so pretty Vacant Don't ask us to attend Cause we're not all there I don't pretend cause I don't care I don't believe illusions Too much is real Stuff your cheap comment Cause we know what we feel We're so pretty Oh so pretty We’re vacant We're so pretty Oh so pretty Vacant We're so pretty Oh so pretty And now And we don't care There's no point in asking You'll get no reply I just remembered I don't decide I got no reason it's all too much You'll always find me Out to lunch We’re out at lunch We're so pretty Oh so pretty We’re vacant We're so pretty Oh so pretty We’re vacant We're so pretty Oh so pretty And now And we don't care We're pretty Pretty vacant We're pretty Pretty vacant We're pretty Pretty vacant We're pretty Pretty vacant And we don’t care |
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June 26th, 2005
Yay! POSTED AT 06:52 PM Listening to: Cemetery Drive by My Chemical Romance Feeling: meh |
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June 26th, 2005
Information Loser Highway. Population Me POSTED AT 11:44 PM You guys I really need to get me a boyfriend. I have no life. Look at me! I'm on the internet at 12:39 in the morning surfing the net downloading usericons, what kind of life is that? I need a boyfriend so I can actually have a life. But I don't really like any of the boys I know, except for like 2. Riley and Daniel B. Those are the only two guys I really like and I won't see Riley until school starts again (In September!) and Daniel is mormon which means he can't date until he is 16 and he is still 15. His birthday was in May. But I don't even think it would work out with us, he is too mormon. He doesn't swear, is really quiet, and I don't think would take to kindly to my H/D loving ways. I don't know about Riley though. He isn't mormon, swears, and I don't know how he would react to my slashy loving ways. Ugh. I need a fuckin boyfriend, I need a fuckin life. But the good news is a found a cool moving Helena icon! Yay for me! ...*begins to cry because she has no life* Feeling: *crying* |
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June 28th, 2005
My Immortal POSTED AT 09:29 PM So you all know you guys really helped me out coming to the realization that I don't need a boyfriend, and that I have just been cramped up in the house by myself for too long! Thanks! I'm so tired of being here Reading: Poisonwood Bible and Grim Grotto Listening to: Haunted by Evanescence Feeling: blank |
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June 29th, 2005
Good Day so far POSTED AT 10:13 AM Ok you guys so I woke up like an hour ago (10ish) I had to get up kinda early today because there are some creepy fat loser repairmen coming around 1 to replace the kitchen cabinet that fell down like 5 months ago. Long story that I won't go into to. Well anyway I sat in bed for like an hour listening to the radio. The first actual song I remember hearing was Nirvana's "Come As You Are" I fuckin love Nirvana so it was a wonderful way to start off the morning! Then I got online talking to my friend Megan! There is a hangout at Tanner Park later today at 1 and I can't go till 1:30 because I have to stay here with the creepy fat loser reparimen from Home Depot until my mom gets home and that should be around 1:30. That is all I have to say right now. That and that right now I really wish I could get into some old beat up car and ram it right through the back wall of a stage and into a screaming crowd of people while My Chemical Romance is rockin out on stage! (without hurting anyone) I have been feeling like doing that a lot lately. Toodles! Listening to: I'm Not Okay (I Promise) by My Chemical Romance Feeling: rockin |
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