Entries for January, 2006
December 31st, 2005
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!! POSTED AT 08:32 PM HAPPY FUCKING NEW YEAR YOU GUYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's not even 11 o'clock yet and I'm already sick! XD Please remember to drink responsibly http://www.mugglenet.com/viewer/?image_location=funny-eggs.jpg Reading: Treasure Island by Robert Louis Stevenson (sp?) Listening to: The Vampires Will Never Hurt You Feeling: rockin 3 cookies
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January 3rd, 2006
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Reading: Treasure Island and Of Mice and Men Listening to: Bullshit by Mindless Self Indulgence Feeling: bored |
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January 8th, 2006
Donnie Darko POSTED AT 01:35 AM as a favorite post I just got through watching Donnie Darko for the first time and I am still in awe of the genius of that movie. Words cannot describe what I feel right now except complete and total awe. I hardly know where to begin, Richard Kelly I bow before you and your amazing insight. Even know as I am typing this I am stunned, my jaw has been hanging open since I first put the movie in. I watched it by myself at night (currently 1:15 in the morning) and boy am I glad I did. You see I have been wanting to see it for a very long time now, a bunch of my friends have seen it and said it was amazing. I finally convinced my parents to rent it last night. My sister was a sleepover, and my dad was at work so my mom and I went to Blockbuster and rented two movies (Suicide Club, another brilliant movie, and Donnie Darko. We also bought Kung Fu Hustle, what a funny movie) We watched Suicide Club and I won't even begin to explain what that was about because I am still not sure, for those out there who have seen Donnie Darko, if you think thats confusing then you don't know confusing. Donnie Darko can't hold a candle to Suicide Club in confusing. But don't get me wrong! I am in no way bashing on Donnie Darko, I would have to say it is one of my new favorite movies! Jake Gyllenhaal amazed me, I had never really seen a movie with him in it before. I saw Bubble Boy on Comedy Central once, but wasn't really paying that much attention to it, kinda flipped back and forth between two shows, but I thought he was ok in that one. Of course I didn't know it was Jake Gyllenhaal until about a week ago. Jake played the character of Donnie Darko perfectly, nobody else could have played it but him. Everybody in that movie was perfect for their roles, everybody. Donnie Darko was such an amazingly complex, yet simple character to me. Because you were allowed this insight into what was happening with him, the things he was seeing you understood him and why he had to do the things he did. Or maybe he just seemed very simple to me is because I am seriously fucked up in the head. The things he said and the things he did all made perfect sense to me. In fact everything he said to his teachers were exactly the kinds of things I have either said, or have wanted to say. When he told of Jim Cunningham I stood up and cheered, because all people like that are is full of shit. The things he thought about were exactly the kinds of things I think about. To sum it all up I connected so closely to Donnie Darko that it is kind of scary, the only barrier between us is I don't take pills, I don't go to therapy and I don't have guy's in bunny suits telling me what to do. Other than that we connected perfectly. Am I the only one who connected so eeiringly close to Donnie Darko or did you guys out there who have seen it connect with him as well? What I mean is am I really that fucked up in the brain or are there others out there like me? I really want to know, and it is a question that has been knawing at me for quite some time. Do I really have a mental illness? Am I really depressed? Am I really crazy? If anybody else out there is having thoughts like these tell me, I want to know if I am the only person who is that fucked up in the brain. To now bring in Suicide Club am I the only person who enjoyed watching a movie about mass suicides that are all being inspired by something on the internet, or a japanese pop band. I won't say to much so as not to give away what I believe to be the answer. It was one of the most disturbing films I have ever seen, and I want to see it again. I suggest to people who think they might enjoy something like this, be forewarned, it is very gory and very kinky in some parts. Wow, this entry has really changed a lot from what I intended it to be, I didn't originally intend to go that depth and become that philosphical, if you read all of that I salute you. I think that now would be a perfect time to say that I truly believe that I do have a mental illness of some kind, and have had one since probably 8th grade (currently in 10th) I do believe it is a mixture of depression and insane. And the weirdest part is I enjoy having it, I love the different view on life it gives me and I have no intention on getting rid of it anytime soon. Don't tell me I need to go get help because I really don't want it, trust me though you guys, I am not suicidal. Life is too fun and I have too many things to do and see to kill myself, and I don't cut either. My body is my temple and I would never do anything to harm it. In conclusion Donnie Darko I bow before you, your amazing insight into the human mind, the amazing philosphical ideas you brought up, and the deep connection you have given me to myself, thank you. |
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January 14th, 2006
Brokeback Mountain POSTED AT 01:43 PM So I saw Brokeback Mountain on Thursday and I must say it was fantastic! I was trying so hard not to bawl at the end (I was wearing a ton of eye make-up and didn't want to walk out of the theatre looking like I was crying tears of blood) I highly suggest it to all, but be forwarned it is rated R for a reason! There were a few boob flashes, and a few dicks shown. That and they said fuck a lot, but hey, what can you do? Really though it was a fantastic movie, Jake Gyllenhaal and Heath Ledger were fantastic, everybody in the movie was. I loved it! I want to go see it again so bad. I only have one complaint, Heath mumbled sometimes so it was kinda hard to hear what he was saying, but other than that he was awesome. Go see it everybody! Unless you are a homophobe, then you might feel uncomfortable. Listening to: Nice Guys Finish Last by Green Day |
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January 16th, 2006
HOORAY! I SAVED HYRULE! POSTED AT 04:45 PM Listening to: Honey, This Mirror Isn't Big Enough For the Two of Us by MCR Feeling: accomplished |
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January 17th, 2006
Ugh, crap POSTED AT 07:39 PM Listening to: A Day In The Life Of by The Beatles Feeling: fuck |
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January 19th, 2006
I passed out during a video about anorexia and bulimia. Oops... POSTED AT 02:04 PM as a favorite post So as you can all tell by the title this entry will be about how I passed out in the middle of my drawing class. So we were sitting there watching this video about anorexia and bulimia and suddenly my head started swimming and I started to feel nauseaus (sp?). Next thing I knew I was on the ground wondering what the hell was going on! I started thinking, "Am I dreaming?" then I thought, "Uh oh, did I fall asleep and now Nicoll (teacher) is laying me on the floor to embarass me so I don't do it again?" then "Shit did I pass out?" I turned my head and looked up at Nicoll and he said, "Are you ok?" Then I said, "Can I go get a drink of water?" He then lead me out of the classroom and into the hall. Some woman came (some office personal) and Nicoll told me what happened. Apparently I started leaning back in my chair my eyes were closed. Nicoll thought that I was just stretching, until he realized I wasn't awake. Then I guess I started falling and the funny thing is he caught me before I hit the ground! The vice principal then came and they asked me a few questions, "When did you start feel like you were going to pass out?" "Did you eat anything for breakfast?" Then the vice principal asked if my mom or dad was home. He then called my mom while I sat on the ground leaning against a chair with a trash can near me. It was about this point when I started coming back to reality. The entire ordeal up to that point had been so surreal. I don't know how to describe it other than it being like a dream. It was uber weird. I talked to the woman from the office and she asked me how I was feeling, she said I looked really pale. Then she asked me again if I ate breakfast. I had been panicking up to this point thinking, "Crap, they probably think I am anorexic or bulimic now!" I said I hadn't had much of a breakfast and hastily added, "But I am not anorexic or bulimic!" She just laughed and said ok. I walked down to the drinking fountain down the hall and got some water, walked back (all of this happened just outside the room in the hall) and then Nicoll came back to check up on me. The vice principal came back and said my mom was on her way. Nicoll got my stuff from the class and they lead me down to the attendance office. Nicoll also gave me a pen that wasn't mine when he got my stuff, I don't know if he was just doing it to be nice, or if he horked it from somebody, put it is a nice pen either way! My mom came and got me and we went to the doctor (pediatrician, yeah I still go to the kids section) I must say I felt really old seeing as it was the pediatricians. I was talking to my mom and we were laughing about how the entire class probably either thinks I am anorexic, bulimic, or on drugs (my outfit today consisted of a black Led Zeppelin t-shirt, jeans with doodles going all the way down one leg, a rip in the other leg with a fishnet stocking underneath, 2 wristbands one bearing the Slytherin logo, and the other plaid with those pyramid spikes, black eyeliner around my eyes and red eyeshadow around the eyeliner, and my hair bobby pinned back on one side. In other words, I look like somebody who would be on drugs) I seemed to be perfectly healthy at the doctor's, but he said just to be on the safe side he wanted me to come in and do a few tests. One consisting of them taking some blood (a fasting sample) having me go eat breakfast, wait two hours, then come back and take some more blood. The other called and EKG if I got it right. It is where they tape 12 wires to you and measure the electricity your heart is sending out, or something to that affect. I will probably be doing that on Saturday. Then I also got a Hepitites (sp?) B shot that I was so close to making it out without. I was going to get it, but then my mom forgot and we went to check out and stuff, then she remembered. Oh well, it wasn't terrible. So yeah, now I feel perfectly fine, I don't know what the hell is up. The weird thing is I was just sitting at my desk, I didn't try to get up or anything. Dr. Metcalf (I love that guy! He is so cool! He asked us if we had seen Memoirs of a Geisha yet, we said no. He highly recommended it. I wanted to recommend Brokeback Mountain, but wasn't sure about his stance so I didn't. But then he said Brokeback Mountain was good too, my mom and I of course agreeed. He said when he went to see it he tried to get his guy friend to wear a cowboy hat, he wouldn't do it. I love that guy) But anyways he said it was uncommon for a person to pass out when they were just sitting there. He also said it wasn't uncommon for a teen to pass out when their body starts to grow quickly, but then he said it was weird because my body growth rate is slowing down. So yeah, maybe it was just one of those weird things. But I am ok now, I think. I will always have an image of Mr. Nicoll lunging forward to catch me now with heroic music playing in the background. XD *image of her drawing teacher, (who is a big guy, he also teaches weight lifting which is a little weird, but whatever) standing on top of the world in a superhero costume holding out a number two pencil with heroic music playing in the background and the words "Super Nicoll!" underneath* XD We do have this assignment in his class where we have to draw something that starts with each letter of the alphabet (A for Alligator, B for Bear, etc.) I think I will do F for Fainted XD At least that cute kid who sits next to me knows who I am now! XD Kudos by the way if you read all that! Snaps for you! *snaps her fingers* Listening to: We Don't Bleed by New London Fire Feeling: weirded out |
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January 26th, 2006
WARRIOR WARS! POSTED AT 10:13 PM Alright guys we got Warrior Wars tomorrow for debate! I WANT TO DOMINATE AT WARRIOR WARS WITH MY LD CASES! GRRRR!!!! I AM PUMPED!!!!! STATE HERE I COME!!!!!! It really should be a blast tomorrow though, and hopefully kids drop out on Sat. so then I can fill in for them. I really want to go on Sat. but I thought I had something on Sat. that would conflict so I didn't sign up. Then I found it that it got cancelled but it was too late to sign up. I was so sad! LD FOREVER!!!!!!!! Listening to: Take Back by Green Day Feeling: pumped |
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Hopefully people drop though! It will rack me up super uber nerdy nfl points so then I can get my excellence seal soon! It is my goal to get it before the end of the year, and to reach distinction before I leave (which is like 300 something points, in other words a hell of a lot) Go debate dorks!
